Wake up in the morning to nothing but the still
I turn on my music and the cold gives me a chill.
Strap on the shoes that I am forced to wear
walk out in the dim light, run my fingers through my hair.
Each passing i look at my self in the mirror and i know who i see
I hang out with the people, the only one not a person is me.
This is my place and my choice
They ignore me, listen to only my own voice
Why are these people here.
Im not the one who doesnt belong here,
Here doesn't belong with me.

...I am too good to you....

i do everything you ask
I am there for you when ever
i always return your calls and texts
i give you gifts
i am your shoulder to lean on
I remember even the little things that are important to you
i will drop everything im doing to come see you
i always take you side
Even when i know your wrong
I snuggle you when ever you need.
am i too good to you...
for what you return to me?

Ever had something really good?
Like super good?
Pretend that bike that you wanted to buy went on sale.
and you bought it.
But you don't want to ride it because its way to special.
But its fun to ride around the block.
Its too risky to take for a real ride.
Should you do it?

So today was supposed to be Talexa day.
Thats tanner- nner
and Alexa- A
add them to together you get talexa.
but the Ta part is having heart ache.
and the Ta part wont let the lexa part in.
All the lexa part wants to do is have fun.
But the lexa part has more fun when the Ta is with it.
Its the exact reason we made Talexa day.

When you loose a best friend, you want to draw them. When you draw a best friend, you remember you lost them. When you loose a friend, you want to cry

Im much too friendly
some people think im too nice
i'm always too LOUD
I dress really classic
i don't really do whats in trend.
It doesn't matter if your popular
if i think your cool
ill be your friend.
If i have a crush on you, i won't hide it well.
If i want to be you friend
I will make it happen.
Im kinda am crazy
but im also pretty cute.
Its the way i am.
I hope you like iiiiiit. :D

All I know is that you're so nice,
You're the nicest thing I've seen.
I wish that we could give it a go,
See if we could be something.

I wish I was your favourite girl,
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world.
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile,
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.

I wish you couldn't figure me out,
But you always wanna know what I was about.
I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset,
I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met.

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly,
'Cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see.
Basically, I wish that you loved me,
I wish that you needed me,
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three.


I wish that without me your heart would break,
Yea, I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake.
I wish that without me you couldn't eat,
Yea, I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.

Look,
All i know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish we could see if we could be something
Yea, I wish we could see if we could be something

-Kate Nash

its the night and its all in your head
You think maybe, im being watched by the dead
Then roll over on to your side
Was it five weeks, the last time you cried?
check the clock its like two in the morn
He must be crazy... but you knew that before.
I think its time to defy all my fears
Head goes
Round
and around
And around
and around
Don't you think its time i got over
How alone that i am?
Should that define all my feeling about
people? And how they should act
Maybe i should stop thinking to much.......
Just come out
Just come out
Come out
Come out

Its been kinda strange, all of a sudden people keep asking me "How do you get your hair to stay in cute curls?" And the answer is SIMPLY! People with curly hair usually use too many products or burn it to death. My first trick is, keep it clean. This is a good rule for any hair, but especially curls. My second trick is use good conditioner and use a lot, but make sure to rinse it thoroughly. My third trick is, curls love to be them selves! Don't overwork your curls. Each day i start out by either showering or rinsing my hair it the sink with a light condition. After this, i brush the way through when it is still soaking wet. I do ring it out, but i don't wrap it in a towel. I find curls look work best went really wet. Next trick, Don't ever blow dry it all the way dry, because it will just turn into a big frizzy mess! I just scrunch it with my hands and blow dry it to a point were the curls stay in a cute ringlet. After i get the look i want i let the rest air dry. If you do over dry and get it frizzy, just spray it with water it should let the curls flow. Also i get asked what products do you use? I just use a good shampoo and conditioner. No mousse, no gel, no hair spray. Curls will do what you want if you just let them.

After all i've done for you
The least you can do is keep quiet

A random story by me.

She sat. Waiting. Really not knowing what she was waiting for. The breeze came through and she tugged her pea coat more tightly around her as she shifted on the hard wooden bench not wanting her muscles to fall asleep. For some reason she needed to stay alert and think. His words tumbled in her mind, over and over like a dryer with just one pair of wet socks. Out across the field past the trees, the taxi's honked their horns and she watched as couples walked along the paved path ways thinking about her next step. Carefully she unscrewed the lid of her diet coke,took a quick swallow and savored the bubbly feeling it had in her nose and mouth. Inhaled exhaled and closed her eyes. The money had been in a tight bundle as he had handed it to her, "Take it and go." He smiled dimly then had left closing the door with a quick click. It had only taken her a half an hour to pack one suit case, one back pack and gather her little terrier Bengi. The plane tickets were to Paris France where she could take a train to Bordeaux where her sister lived. She could do anything with the amount of money he had given her, it was the link to a new life out side of this busy city and she could start over. This was her chance.

Today Maytee and I had the best Confetti fest ever.
She threw confetti every where! all over the halls and in the class rooms. And people started picking the confetti up and sticking them on their foreheads. It was awesome.

Cartoon Colored water color dream

I had this crazy awesome dream last night! Alright so it started out that i was in the children's Museum with my little sister my cousin and my sister Claire, and robin kept seeing my friend, Maytee. But i couldn't find her but all of a sudden i was at this weird school with my friend Logan. He was dressed in this cool orange tea shirt with orange shorts and he had his little fohawk and everything. Then i found Maytee in a closet dressed in a pink t shirt and little pink shorts. She had this plastic pink bow and strange eye make up and glitter, but she still looked exactly like Maytee. Well it turns out there are these different awesome school buses, most of which look like they came out of a doctor suess book, some were like trains some were like buses and some were just vans. Any ways i said goodbye to Maytee and started to look for my bus. I had missed it. So i decided to just walk home. While i was walking in my purple dress and little 50s shoes and pigtails and glitter make up, i come to this giant bowl shaped valley, and in side there is what looks like snow! So i pick up the snow and it is actually bubbles:) but underneath is this brand new light green grass. I keep walking along and all of a sudden its not patches of bubbles, its just filled with balloon of all different shapes and sizes and colors. I decide to move the balloons down to the bottom of this bowl valley and as i do, words starts showing up on the mountain just like a picture book. As i keep walking, the new green grass fades to a white blank behind me leaving words of a song. Every thing looks like its been water colored! So i am singing this song while moving the balloons and crazy little cartoon charters start popping up and singing with me, and on the hills of the valley are sweet water colored houses. Now we are moving like the pictures move in like school house rock, not really smooth but they are moving. we are walking and singing in all of the balloons and we sing the last note and the book turns the page, and there is a water colored hard back picture book with the sheet music on the back of the book. I close the book and think this is defiantly the best book ever! Too bad i woke up.

Xaver

Xaver was a sweet kid, quite charming and semi-good looking. There was nothing wrong with him, he was just different. Xaver couldn't seem to make friends, he liked to fix things and was extreamly smart. But he could only see out of one dark brown eye, the other was white blue and could only see colors and there were no real shapes. People made fun of him because he drew crazy pictures and made up silly stories, but he didn't really care that he was a bit lonely. One day at school he was drawing a picture of a machine that could feed his dog and his rabbit at the same time and he felt a tap on his shoulder. It was a thin girl with curly black hair. She had tight jeans and mismatched shoes one white and one blue. She wore a black sweater with one white rain cloud with a little anime smiley face. Xaver blinked his good eye keeping his other one open. The girl winked back. "what do you want?" he asked rather loudly, was she making fun of him? She jumped. " you don't have to yell" she said. " It hurts my hears. I just wanted to see what you were doing. It looks like a machine to feed multiple pets at a time. I need one of those, its a pain to feed my dog and my rat and my turtle all at the same time." He looked at her with amazement. She held out her hand to him, he took it. Later he learned her name was Tea, really it was Tealashay, but it was too long so he just called her tea. Tea had acute hearing and could hear him across the room even if he whispered really teeny tiny across the isle. He thought it was terrificly amazing. Tea loved going to Xavers house, and helped him build anything and every thing and they were best friends. One day Tea came to school with a nasty bruise over her cheek bone. "what happened to your cheek" xaver asked. "Oh," she nervously chuckled " i fell off my bike." and xaver believed her. Until later at his house when she had no scrapes on her hands. Xaver wasn't stupid. The next day he asked if he could come over, and Tea said her parents didn't like other kids coming over. Over the next few weeks, it all started to click. One day Xaver asked Tea to take off her jacket at his house later that day, She said she was chilled, though he persisted. "Why won't you take your jacket off tea?" "Because i don't want to!" she shouted. She covered her ears, tears started to well in her eyes. Tea slowly pulled down the sleeves of her arms, and he could see why she didn't want to take it off. Some one had grabbed her so hard it left finger marks on both arms. He under stood," you don't have to take it off tea." " i want you to see" she said. She lifted up her shirt just enough so xaver could see the purple circles on her stomach and rib cage. He look at her and whispered as softly as he could. " i love you tea." and Tea smiled.